Circle of inner contentment

Circle of inner contentment

Everyone has a voice inside. Some call it a conscience, some call it a soul and others call it instinct. No matter what you believe we are driven by something that we cannot see, touch or measure.

Religion always told me that the soul was the most important part of who we are, that the body was corrupted by being on earth and it was our duty to ignore the needs of the body so we can fuel our soul. I don’t think like most people, my thoughts don’t work in words but in feelings, impressions, concepts. Thinking in feelings gave me a greater tie to those around me, my soul hurt for those that were hurting and loved for those that loved. It quickly became my life’s mission to understand the soul and find a way to live that gave me inner peace, the knowledge that whatever I did, I could do it without regret. Even though my journey to self discovery took me to my destination, it wasn’t until much later in life that I realized that my personal journey left me on an isolated peak.

There was a gap inside me that prevented me from being content. I had no regrets, everything I did was made in the best of intentions. By exploring the depths of existing, digging into every experience I could find, my perspective of the world and the people that lived in it was more than I could have expected. What I was missing was a community, people that could help me turn the path I found into a road for others to travel. If the most enlightened person to ever exist only sat on a mountaintop, their life would be meaningless because their enlightenment would leave the earth when they did. It was this realization that fit the last piece into the puzzle, pointing out my biggest flaw, why my circle of inner contentment was incomplete.